This weekend I learned a very valuable lesson, the act of staying true to your self-integrity and being out of integrity and the end result of being out of integrity.
Rewind!:
Look at self integrity as your own, foundation, if you will. These are the CORE VALUES you hold and make up who you are as a being. Based on these core values, this is what makes you whole. This is what you project to other people on a daily basis, and this is what makes YOU, you. :)
This is what I get out of staying within my self-integrity and maintaining my core values:
• The quality of my relationships, be it friends or family
• Confidence in living/conducting my OWN life
• Higher level of personal productivity
• the difference I make as a person
• Higher degree of enjoyment of my life
So, because self integrity is the base for MY foundation as a person, I hold on to these values with all might and not allow anyone to "peck" at these values.
There will always be those that question my values, what I stand for, who I am, and those people are the ones that are out of integrity with themselves and will continue to "peck" at YOUR foundation until you are left with nothing and bring you to THEIR level.
I see people like this as cancerous cells attacking my body, which represents my being. If I don't fight it or remove myself from them, then I am making a choice to allow these bad cells to take over my body and I will soon perish because of it.
This is my way of being UN-Selfish while beng SELF-ISH. One doesn't exist without the other, I give to others by allowing them to be who they are and the potential they have to be, but you have to keep yourself in check in the process and do whatever it takes to protect your being.
This is where choices come, you always have the choice to allow those kind of people to continue to "peck" at you OR you stand up for yourself and defend your fort!
Out of Integrity:
So, there was an incidence this weekend where I allowed myself to be out of integrity and putting myself in an environment ("party") that I had made a personal decision I would not support. I allowed other "friends" to convince me to participate (attend) even though it was going to be out of integrity for me to allow this, mind you, I do not blame them, I blame myself for having made that choice. Anywho, I proceeded even though I was feeling manipulated in the process but again, not their fault it was ME doing it to myself as I was trying to please them.
The simple act of showing up in an environment ("party") I had chosen to remove myself from allowed those "cells" to be prepared to attack and THEY did. Now, mind you, I DID NOT get emotionally hurt or even physically hurt. However, it became a huge mirror for myself! That is when I realized that I was out of integrity and I knew this, I still ignored myself and did it. So, I thank those folx for allowing me to see that I was out of integrity by being in THEIR presence.
Now, these folx that read this rant will attempt to take my writtings completely out of context to support their own agendas and "pecking", that is their issue, not mine.
I know that who I am is what everyone loves about me and there is nothing anyone can do otherwise to undermine this, as long as I continue to stand strong in my convictions of being an honest and true person.
Those that try and "peck" at my foundation will do nothing but expose themselves to those they are trying to enroll in their self-destructive behavior and they will be the ones to suffer at the end.
Back in The Game:
Unfortunately, this act also showed me exactly who are NOT my friends and were keeping up the apperance of being friends. They will soon find out their fate as they fade from my presence as I once again CLEAN house and get rid of these "cells" from my body and not allow them back in.